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Wednesday, August 27th, 2008
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figured i would update...
i feel like im comming back to the zombie-fied city...and its desolate...cause everyone moved to myspace...and...no one is here anymore......
its what i did...
ok well i better get outta her before my brains get eaten by the livejournal-zombie
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Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
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why must i constantly do things to hurt myself...i feel so stupid...i dont want to do anything anymore...
i hate everything about my life...every fucking part.i dont know what to do anymore.i dont know where anything is going.it just keeps getting worse and worse...and i dont want to do it anymore.i feel so stupid.no...i am stupid...how could i ever think someone could love me?
it hurts so bad...
everything is going wrong.everything.and now ive got medical stuff wrong with me...i may end up losing an overy...i may not be able to have babies...the one thing i know i have wanted.this isnt fair...what did i deserve to hurt this bad...again and again...i hate the fucking army. i hate men. i hate life.
i dont know how to make it better...
every time i try...i end up digging a deeper hole for myself...im going to see a therapist again when i get to ft bragg.this isnt normal to feel this way.and i feel like this all of the time.its not normal
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so apparently...myspace isnt aloud in the army...but livejournal is fine and dandy...so i may be updating here more often then not......
here is a quick update...i have been in the army for about 5 months now...im about to go home for summer exidus...ummm...i was SOO TOTALY LIED TO by the army...my graduation date is my birfdate!!! ummm...i have the most wonderfullest boyfriend in the world...i have just recently befriended...im about to check out his LJ...billybob something or another...okey dokey...bye!!!
~Pvt Allman
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Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
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| Time: | 6:48 pm. |
| Mood: |  ecstatic. |
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HEY GUYS!!! its me im at the army at the moment...doing my bootcamping...overall its fun...i only have like 2 more minutes...so its a shorty journal...you guys need to write me letters...i havent gotten one yet!!! ummm...thats it cause once the drill sargent says sto we cant click anymore...so yeah...
havin fun!!!...i might be able to come online again...we get 10 minutes like...once every 2 weeks...and phone 5 minutes once every 2 weeks too...im doing a lot of fun stuff!!!...ohhh...and i cant access myspace from the army online...so if you guys wanna say something to me write me an e-mail at azulwatergoddess@aol.com or just comment on here...bye!!!
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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:48 pm. |
| Mood: |  morose. |
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thought i should leave you guys hanging...
im leaving on wednesday...so...i wont be able to check to see you guys' comments on here......till like...july...so yeah...supprise me......leave me 25 comments on here...hehehehe...most i have ever gotten on an entry...hehehehe...
so yeah...if you guys know my myspace...ill post my address on there...or...if you guys know my house phone # then my mom will give it to you...the password is... Private Allman ill tell my mom :p or even...chick-fil-a should have it......but i dont think they will give it to just anyone...so yeah......
thats pretty much it......ill update as soon as i can...probably around july!...bye you guys!!!
~MaNdA
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
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| Time: | 12:52 pm. |
| Mood: |  hungry. |
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hey hey...im leaving in like...4 days......but that last day dosent count...cause im leaving at noon......so its more like 3 days......i figure ill stop by everyones house on tuesday...
so yeah...if your important ill see you then :p
not really...im gunna try and visit EVERYONE!!! even if i have only talked to you once im my life...IM VISITING YOU!!!
im debating on one person though......debating debating...
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Friday, February 10th, 2006
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| Time: | 12:31 am. |
| Mood: | not sure. |
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i was talking with alfred...and i was upset because of......jerry reasons...and he bursts out with this......
I don't know. It's just a feeling of mine. Weather in-experienced or not, I believe in the bonds we share with people. Love to me is something eternal because of the memories we share with each other. The good and the bad. It's all there. We were alive back then and still today. We were together, we talked to one another, we walked the same path, ate the same food, held hands the first time to the last. Everythings there. It's not the ending, because it's just the beginning of the journey of life. It's like you try to absorb every moment you can barely remember into a jacket, and you wear that jacket because it's you, your that person. Your with me. I'm out there. I'm alone. Everything just makes sense. It's a crazy feeling? Sorry if I sound weird.
made me cry...i know i know...im a cry baby......but when you feel how i am right now......this hits ya really deep......
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Monday, February 6th, 2006
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| Time: | 5:28 pm. |
| Mood: |  upset. |
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BOO!
still upset......but i will get over it......in 5 years
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Saturday, February 4th, 2006
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| Time: | 4:13 pm. |
| Mood: |  ugh. |
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:(
valentines day is comming up......and its reminding me of when i was loved...sigh
i hate love...it only hurts you more in the end...
the last 2 years of my life was a waste of time...why did he do this to me?
why did i ever ask him out in the begining...i should have just kept to myself......i would be happier now...
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Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
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| Time: | 4:27 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. |
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this will probably be one of the last journal entries that i will write...
i think i put that i joined the army...if not...i joined the army...
i leave on the 16...so...party time till then...i wanna have a party...like wild party sometime this week...i just need a house...and plenty of alchohol...
so ive got this problem...i want to have sex with 100 different people...but i dont want to be a slut...what should i do?
:p
thats pretty much it......
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Saturday, January 28th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:36 pm. |
| Mood: |  excited. |
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leaving feburary 16th :(
a little earlier then i wanted...
ohhhh well...
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Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
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| Time: | 5:07 pm. |
| Mood: | excited. |
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i joined the army today...leaving at the end of feburary...i want to see everyone face to face before i leave...so call me up...or... **cough**cough**suprise party**cough**
hehehehe
whatever...IM me or call me for more info!!!
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Monday, January 23rd, 2006
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well...its over...herry and i talked for about 5 hours...and his final decision......he just wants to be friends...and i dont undertand why...and it hurts...i didnt think it would hurt this bad......im going back to bed for a couple of days...it seems to be the closest thing to crawling in a hole and dying that i can get to
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Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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| Time: | 5:06 pm. |
| Mood: |  annoyed. |
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-.-
i dont want to say it but......
if he dosent call me today...then we are over......for good -.-
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Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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| Time: | 4:53 pm. |
| Mood: | no mood. |
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kyle died last night on his way home from school...he had so much going for him...and he was so young...life isnt fair......
im really afraid jerry is gunna do something stupid when he finds out...
im really gunna miss him......its not fair
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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| Time: | 10:10 am. |
| Mood: |  giddy. |
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last night i had one of the BEST nights ever...and everything just worked out GREAT!!! nothing went wrong...I DONT EVEN HAVE A HANGOVER!!!
it was great...if you wanna ask what all happened...just IM me...i can try to tell you...but i really dont remember most of it...i have been up for 24 hours straight......and im not even tired!!!!!!
WOOOOO!!!!...made some new friends......fought off men all night...it was great...just great......more details if you IM me...i really dont want certian people to know certian details :p
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Friday, January 13th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:12 am. |
| Mood: |  depressed. |
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hah...got fired...
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Sunday, January 1st, 2006
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Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:11 am. |
| Mood: |  stressed. |
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ok so...not that my job was hard...cause honestly...when i learn all the cars...itll be a peice of cake...but...now they moved me......to internet sales...woo...so now i have to learn every car...up and down...by friday...and i have to take my driveing test...cause i never got around to doing that...and if i dont...they fine me $500 and take tack on 2 more points to the already 2 :( :( :( can you see the sadness!!!!!!
but once i get the cars down(by friday >.< ) i will stop getting all of these stress pimples >.< i have like...20million pimples...and all of them are between my lip and my nose...so i pretty much have a pimple mustache...GREAT for selling cars >.<
ok...so after all that was said...im hummery...and i really wanna eat...but i have to wait till 12:00 to see if jerry calls me...sigh...i might just eat a snack num num
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